New Post, New Day...

Woke up at 10 after having been up till 7 in the morning...
Felt shit. Should try to masturbate more when I feel like this, something nice GOT to happen.

This little light of mine,
I'm gonna let it shine
This little light of mine,
I'm gonna let it shine
This little light of mine,
I'm gonna let it shine
Let it shine,
Let it shine,
Let it shine.

Hide it under a bushel? No!
I'm gonna let it shine
Hide it under a bushel? No!
I'm gonna let it shine
Hide it under a bushel? No!
I'm gonna let it shine
Let it shine,
Let it shine,
Let it shine.

This little light of mine,
I'm gonna let it shine
This little light of mine,
I'm gonna let it shine
This little light of mine,
I'm gonna let it shine
Let it shine,
Let it shine,
Let it shine.

Don't let Satan blow it out,
I'm gonna let it shine
Don't let Satan blow it out,
I'm gonna let it shine
Don't let Satan blow it out,
I'm gonna let it shine
Let it shine,
Let it shine,
Let it shine.

This little light of mine,
I'm gonna let it shine
This little light of mine,
I'm gonna let it shine
This little light of mine,
I'm gonna let it shine
Let it shine,
Let it shine,
Let it shine.

Shine all over you,
I'm gonna let it shine
Shine all over you my love,
I'm gonna let it shine
Shine all over you,
I'm gonna let it shine
Let it shine,
Let it shine,
Let it shine.

This little light of mine,
I'm gonna let it shine
This little light of mine,
I'm gonna let it shine
This little light of mine,
I'm gonna let it shine
Let it shine,
Let it shine,
Let it shine.

...because there is nothing that can dim my little light, and whatever or whoever tries to do it... basically just needs to remember that his own light should be shining as bright again, too...

Off to start a fire...
Love,
Ellen

Voce e assim um sonho pra mim... E quando eu nao te vejo... eu penso em voce...

A lot of time has passed since I posted here.
Since I started school I got more and more sick of it. Being top of class doesn't instantly mean you do best. And not that you enjoy going to school. To be quite hoenst its a torture going at all.
After having been pissed off for what seemed endless weeks I decided to stop whining and do something about it. I decided to go to the UK to study. And right now I'm organising it all.

The bigger news is that I've fallen in love. And that I am not even close to doubting that this will change my life. Not that I am in need of more change because my life is bad or something... I just know that this is right. This is supposed to happen. And all is good.
His name is Dave, (NO, not DICKHEAD DAVE, my ex... ) he is from Glasgow, Scotland and to not make him sound too nice for you ladies out there, pretty damn fantastic.
32 , 2 kids who are 14(girl) and 10,(boy) ...
...basically all I can say is that we fell head over heels... and if you, my dear friends, are honest with yourself that is the only way you can imagine me falling in love, right?
I want to spend the rest of my life with this man. And i can't remember posting anything on here that I've been as dead serious with...


And now I am dead inside. Because I am worth nothing and as many have said before unlovable.

I learned my lesson.