#17 Stephen Henderson

I've just been to the football field here in Frankfurt. My new flats gonna be 10 minutes away from it.
This week Stephen (you actually pronounce it Steffen, not Steven) asked me if I wanted to go to the cinema with him. Stephen is american, short, handsome, lovely complexion and very easy to make happy and smile- my ex boyfriend (we've been together for about 3 weeks- I am a master with long-term relationships, I can tell!) and we still get along brilliantly.
He's always been playing football. He looks damn cute with those protecting thingies on.
The thing I wanted to talk about though is that it is nice how we get along now. He did something wrong, he said he never had time for me but I always knew that he was only hoping he was in love with me and his priorities were all mixed up because he actually WASN'T in love.
Stephen is a VERY decent guy. Emotional. A bit messed up. A bit indecicive and unconcidered in what he does and why he does it. Still I think I made a catch in him and I had a good time with him.
Today at some point he was sitting far off, overlooking the football field. I walked up and sat behind him, wrapped my arms around his shouldes and we had a talk. He said how weird it was to be leaving on monday.
Pretty much all army bases are closing in Germany, I think about 5 will stay opened (one of them being the biggest base out of North America with the biggest army hospital out of the USA as well), anyway, the other ones are pretty much closing down.
--- That means that 98% of the here stationed soldiers go home to the US. It means as well that 90% of the german army sluts are unemployed and the other 10% aregetting married to some dickhead to get into the States. ---
Stephen, now, is leaving on monday. He is going back to Texas. And not coming back. Eventhough he says he'd like to have stayed a bit longer.
Babe, I wish you all good in this world. You are right, you need "alone-time". You need to feel deserted and I know it's gonna be horrible. I'm gonna be here to support you though. ANd yes, I will come and see you if I should ever pass through L.A.--- and yes, I'll be happy to come to your "hood" (hahahahaa can't believe I actually wrote that word down!!!)
Thanks for what you've given me Stephen.
I Hope, so much, that you'll be happier with yourself the next time I see you.





(...and when I see you I'll give you those back, but up until then Ill keep them as, in case of the t-shirt, smelly reminder of you. I'll not forget you, babe!)

#16 creativity in my family...

Now I have a rather creative family.

Mom is art teacher, dad's a sculpturer, paints, draws and writes, Andrea, his wife is dance therapist and really good with decoration and colour, Willem, my brother is a rapper and writes his own lyrics, Benny, my step brother, is a joiner (germ.: "Schreiner") and did real nice master piece,his younger brother Matze is a chef... and so on...
All the drawings on here are done by MEEEEE!!! Feel free to click on all the posted pictures and photos to enlarge...

(Mom did this one... Picture of Claus, shaving ^^, my mom's artistic identification symbol is a smiling lozenge, the german word is "Karo" and her name is Caro(line)! So cute!)

#15 John Mayer and me...

Since that Daphi-guy got me hooked on John Mayer I am obsessed (yeah, I mentioned before). For now I pretty much can sing along every single song of the 4 albums I have... and every day I read another song text online and pend some time thinking about it.
Today I went on his website http://www.johnmayer.com/ and the first thing that jumps in my face is a announcement- John Mayer is playing at the Royal Albert all in London. First thought was: I HAVE to go. I will go. No way I can miss that. Second thought consisted of tattery mental drooling and the sudden memoy of not being able to afford it.
Yeah, FUCK that. If I have to I'll just not make holiday and not get as christmas and/or birthday present- I can't miss this. I am not crazy, I am just someone who's life consists of 90% music! The other 10% are sleeping (9,7%) and smoking (0,3%).
Bless John Mayer. He is a fantastic song writer and musician!!!

(I tried to find a good picture of him and it took a while... oh well, he doesn't need be drop dead gorgeous- he's awesome anyway, and full packages are plain scary!!!)

#14 mom and me

Mom and me have been fighting for years. I am puzzled how life goes for us right now.
Today woke up dreaming of my mom being pissed off with me and wanting me to move out asap because I did something she didn't like... and then I woke up and thought: "Oh, now nice, no tantrum!!!"
By now we don't argue anymore. We discuss and work things out. Without an educational background, we just get along anyway and need to sort some things out... it actually feels like we are friends now.


Last night mom came home from her last night on her old school, saying good bye to her pupils, she had all dressed up and asked me for make up tipps. She came home about 1:30 in the morning and I was smoking a fag on the balcony. She came outside to join me and started telling me how her evening was. Not that I asked for it- she just came up and told me how it was, just sharing her experiance. Very nice. I guess I can learn that of her, just opening up and letting someone into my world spontaneously!

Yep, fair enough, friends it is, then...