At the moment it is alright to be on my own. I am me, with my music, I sing along quietly and I acutally feel whole. Still I want to share this feeling with people but not with somone speciffic.
When I stood on the balcony smoking a cigarette fine water particles sprayed over my bare shoulders, the rain was falling and the wind carried the mist on to my body. The green on the balcony is so refreshing to the eyes- I live in the middle of a metropole, only need to walk 5 minutes to be right in the center and still this my little oasis.
I see my life spread out in front of me, in a few weeks I'll have my very own flat again...
"Stop this train... I wanna get off and go home again, I can't take the speed it's moving in, I know I can't, but honestly, won't someone stop this train..."...
It took me 20 years of living to realise that I am not lonely. I am alone.
Where ever I go I will meet people that will walk a bit of the way with me and even just thinking of them will give me some strengh to walk by myself.
I think I just stopped looking for the other human being that completes me. I am whole. I am looking for someone who is too and who I can proudly walk next to...
"Don't stop this train, not for a minute change the place you're in, And don't think I couldn't ever understand, I tried my hand, honestly we'll never stop this train"
When I stood on the balcony smoking a cigarette fine water particles sprayed over my bare shoulders, the rain was falling and the wind carried the mist on to my body. The green on the balcony is so refreshing to the eyes- I live in the middle of a metropole, only need to walk 5 minutes to be right in the center and still this my little oasis.
I see my life spread out in front of me, in a few weeks I'll have my very own flat again...
"Stop this train... I wanna get off and go home again, I can't take the speed it's moving in, I know I can't, but honestly, won't someone stop this train..."...
It took me 20 years of living to realise that I am not lonely. I am alone.
Where ever I go I will meet people that will walk a bit of the way with me and even just thinking of them will give me some strengh to walk by myself.
I think I just stopped looking for the other human being that completes me. I am whole. I am looking for someone who is too and who I can proudly walk next to...
"Don't stop this train, not for a minute change the place you're in, And don't think I couldn't ever understand, I tried my hand, honestly we'll never stop this train"
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